It’s been one of those off weeks where nothing seems to make sense, but I’m happy to know I have some good times and great friends to fall back on. So here’s a bit of what I’ve been up to these past few weekends:
Edit: If we flashback to my last study abroad post, I wrote about how I wanted to stop feeling guilty for enjoying life. Lately, I feel I’ve been surrounded by an immense amount of stress and pressure. Even though I’m working full time, I feel like my off-time should be spent doing more things to prepare for the future because ‘that’s what everyone else is doing.’ So many “What happens next?” conversations have more than overflowed my memory bank, which I can expect will foreshadow the remainder of senior year, but right now, my only project is to actively return to a healthier, better state of mind.
“We think that success is difficult, and so, for us, it is. Success in life doesn’t have to involve negative tension. We don’t have to be struggling all the time. If you think about it, ‘taking the bull by the horns’ would be a very dangerous thing to do. In fact, ambitious tension actually limits our ability to succeed because it keeps us in a state of contraction, emotionally and physically. It seems to give us energy but doesn’t really, like the white sugar of mental health; there’s a short high, followed by a crash. The cultivation of mental rest, or surrender, is like eating healthy food. It doesn’t give us an immediate rush, but over time it provides a lot more energy.”
– Marianne Williamson, A Return To Love