A few weeks ago, I had a breakdown. I passed my seven-month mark of unemployment and I could no longer focus on the idea that change was around the corner. While I am completely aware that millions of people are in my current situation, knowing this did not bring me a sense of peace or comfort. I felt that I had accomplished so much through my college career that I could not understand why, at the very least, I was not getting interviews. I started to rethink and regret everything.
I gave in to the belief that my major was useless. I started to overanalyze job descriptions, convincing myself I did not have a skill set beyond knowing “how to talk.” I especially beat myself up for participating in the internship program this summer in London at the expense of a potential full-time job opportunity with a company I love. But something changed–I had an epiphany. Continue reading “The Epiphany”
Disclaimer: As you may have guessed from the picture, this post is not about college basketball. Though there is some basketball in it.
If you read my last post, you will know that the last month or so has not been that eventful for me. However, I was able to do a couple of things this month that were pretty amazing.
At the beginning of the month, my brother and I went to a Dallas Mavericks game. They were playing against the Memphis Grizzlies, a.k.a. our second home. We already had amazing seats, but with the help of an old friend, we had the chance to view the last quarter of the game in a suite! We felt very exclusive. We also explored the Old No. 7 Club after the game as neither my brother nor I knew that they even had bars in the American Airlines Center. Actually, maybe we did, but we just didn’t know the general public actually went to them. It was a really fun night!
Last weekend, I planned to attend the annual St. Patrick’s Day Parade here in Dallas with my friend Ilse. Why it wasn’t yesterday instead of last weekend, I do not know. I am not Irish (as far as I know) and I never celebrate this holiday, but I figured why not? Anyway, I say “planned to attend” the parade because we never actually made it; we spent most of the parade time trying to round up other people so by the time the whole party arrived, the parade was nearly over. However, we still headed over to Greenville Avenue–where the parade was held–and caught up with the after party. It was incredibly crowded [as expected] with an unnecessary $10 entrance fee to simply walk on a street, but it was a lot of fun! Day drinking is always an interesting experience. I just hope next year I can actually catch the parade.
Finally, my friend Kalyn from school came to visit this past week from Oregon. She is from Dallas as well so we knew we had to meet up when she was in town. She and I decided to go to Topgolf as neither of us had been before. Aside from the fact that they charge you for a membership card that you then load money on for the games, I surprisingly enjoyed my time there! I won both games between the two of us, but that is not saying a lot. We agreed that we are definitely not golfers. I would say that it is more worth the price(s) to go with a group, but if you are going with one other person, paying for one hour ($20) is enough time. Like I said, we managed to play two games while also stopping to take pictures and record videos for Snapchat and Instagram. It was so nice to not only do something we both had never done before in our hometown, but to also catch up considering we haven’t seen each other since graduation last year. 🙂
I may not be able to get out and about as much as I would like, but these have definitely been amazing highlights of the month. We still have a couple of weeks left though!
I feel like I am constantly writing a “sorry I’ve been MIA” post as if I have a major following. Still, I feel like if I say I have new posts every Sunday, I should uphold it. Funny enough, I say this as I am posting on a Monday evening, but I felt like some form of update was due to explain the last few weeks as well as what you should expect moving forward for as long as I am in my current state. Continue reading “Under Construction”
I don’t know how to start this letter so I figure I’ll just jump right in. It was no surprise when I got the news of your passing. It made me feel more emptiness than sadness–like a part of me disappeared. You and I have had an incredible bond over the last five years and I am grateful for it everyday. Every Sunday during college, like clockwork, I would call you while I did laundry in the morning. I always knew I was too late if Mr. Trent already arrived after church, but even a few minutes on the phone went a long way. When I missed a Sunday, you would always tell me how I forgot. But while I should have been feeling guilt about missing those days, knowing you looked forward to these conversations as much as I did brought me a sense of comfort that I needed during those years where I often felt lost.
I know that these frequent calls disappeared in the last year when I went back abroad and especially in these last six months since I have been unemployed. I felt embarrassed and I didn’t want to call you to let you know how all my plans had fallen apart from what I’d imagined. However, the few times we spoke over the last few months let me know that I should have just called anyway because you just wanted to hear my voice. Thankfully, I was given that last opportunity a few weeks ago when we visited. We got to catch up on everything, which was really a whole lot of nothing on both of our ends, but we laughed and laughed like we always did. I told you that the next time you hear from me, I will have a job and I will not call you without good news. Unfortunately, that phone call never came because I thought we had more time, but I can’t dwell on that. Instead, I choose to remember you by the small life lessons you may or may not know have impacted me:
- Always keep your own money.
- Always pair your earrings with a necklace.
- Always dress for company.
- Always carry lipstick (even if it’s the only thing in your purse).
Obviously you taught me more things than this, but these were things you always told me. I am going to miss you incessantly asking me if I had a boyfriend yet even though you said marriage was “just alright;” I am going to miss you trying to convert me into a Thaddeus Matthews fan and trying to get me to try Morgan David wine; but most importantly, I am going to miss our talks, laughing about everything and nothing every Sunday morning. I am glad we had this tradition because this is what I can look back on along with the childhood memories I had in your house on Trigg. I don’t know what happens now, but I know you’ll never really be gone. You spent 97 years on this Earth and I was lucky to spend 23 of them with you. So here’s to one last Sunday chat–I hope you had a wonderful day with Granddad. I love you ❤
I cannot remember the last time I experienced a near-full week of warm weather in February in Texas.
I know I am a day late, but my weekend was pretty packed with activities so I was not able to post at my regular time yesterday. It was between 70 and 80 degrees this entire week so I definitely had to take advantage of it. On Saturday, I visited the Dallas Arboretum and Botanical Garden–The Arboretum for short–for the second time in two weeks. Normally, The Arboretum is a $15 admission fee, but until February 24th, admission is only $5!
Last week, I went there with my friend Ilse for an impromptu photoshoot (which will be featured on here soon), and this Saturday, I went with my friend Jane. Initially, the point of this trip was to have a joint photoshoot, but we actually spent most of our time relaxing in the gardens (trying to cool down). It was so peaceful though to sit around and soak in the sun. And we did end up getting some cute pictures!
Yesterday was my dad’s birthday so my family and I started the day by going to the Meyerson Symphony Center to hear Pines of Rome played by the Dallas Symphony Orchestra. This was my first time sitting in the chorus and it was a much different experience. I actually prefer it because you can see the expressions of the conductor and, obviously, you are surrounded by the sounds. It was an amazing show!
Following the show, we had a delicious dinner at Ruth’s Chris; my dad wanted to splurge a little bit for his 55th and there were no complaints coming from the rest of us. I had a petite filet with large shrimp and my brother and I shared the lobster mac and cheese.
Overall, I had a really, really great day. I don’t know a lot of people my age who are not music majors that actually enjoy going to listen to an orchestra, so it is nice that I get to share this with my family. Not to mention, I will be dreaming of this meal until I have the grand opportunity to have it again. All in all, it was a solid weekend 🙂